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You aren’t crazy if you hear voices

There’s a stigma behind having voices in your head. At best, people will joke about it. “Everyone hears voices,” they’ll say. They might even tell you that it’s okay to listen to them. Might even tell you that it’s okay to talk to them. But then they’ll joke “But if they talk back, that’s when you should worry.”

They don’t realize that the voices in your head are actually a part of you. Probably a suppressed part.

Everyone likes to think that the voices in your head are dangerous. And maybe sometimes they can be a little reckless if you aren’t doing much with your life. Maybe they want to shake things up for you because they’ve realized that you’ve settled for a life you didn’t want. Are you at a desk job when you’d rather be out walking among the trees or working with animals? Are you working with kids when you’d rather be painting or writing? Are you in a place that you always want a vacation from?

Maybe your voices know you better than you know yourself. Maybe your voices are the part of you that was told to stop being so excited over “silly things” or told to be realistic and pick a job that would actually make you money instead of going after what you were actually passionate about. Maybe your voices just want a conversation but because so many people think voices make you crazy.

But what is crazy other than a lazy way of saying that you are too different to be taken seriously. Really? You’re going to let them tell you that. Don’t sell yourself short.

Next time you hear that voice in your head, or maybe even just a vague awareness of something else going on under the surface, tune into it. Listen to it for a minute. Give it a chance to actually voice its thoughts.

“What are you doing with your life?” It might ask. “Why are you even here?”

Maybe it isn’t being harsh. Maybe it realizes your actual potential and knows that you aren’t even giving yourself a chance. Maybe it wants to remind you of what you used to want to be.

Talk to yourself. It doesn’t have to be outloud. Your voice is in your head as well. All these voices are parts of you. Listen to them, make friends with them, see how to change up your life so that you are settling for something or just waiting for retirement for your life to start.

Embrace the crazy if that’s what it is for you. Crazy isn’t an insult. Crazy is knowing that you deserve better than commonplace and going after what you actually want in life. Find what’s holding you back, cut ties with it, and just listen to your own voice for once. Don’t let them silence you anymore.

Reflections Beyond the Masks

I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting this Halloween season. Halloween isn’t a typical time for reflecting but I do it every year. Halloween used to be my favorite time of year as a child – better than my birthday or even Christmas.

Every year, I’d plan out my costume well enough ahead of time and work on building my costume. (Though for my younger years, the credit goes to my mom.) But the best part of the year was when Grandpa came to get me for our trick-or-treat excursions in a complementary costume. Prince Charming when I was Cinderella, a baby bottle when I was a preteen baby, a long-haired hippie when I went through my cool stage, and my favorite year, a blue M&M to compliment my red M&M.

You can't top this awesomeness!

You can’t top this awesomeness!

Sure my sisters and my dad went along but everyone knew what Grandpa and I had was special. You couldn’t fake this level of style. We had it and we knew it.

My grandpa was many things to me over the years but overall, he was my best friend. He inspired me to be different and be creative but more than anything, he taught me to be proud of that. Grandpa is the reason I smile when people call me weird. Halloween is the time for masks and costumes but by using those things, Grandpa ended up teaching me how to better express myself without needing to hide behind those things. A costume is great but you can’t wear it all the time. I sure tried but it got me into some trouble. I’d like to think that with every passing day, I show the world more of me. I’d like to think that but I know there are days I still try to hide myself from the critics and naysayers.

You can be anyone you want to be on Halloween but the biggest challenge of them all is to be who you really are.

Scribbling on blank pages

Obviously, if you are considering following a writer, you’ll want to know what sort of stuff they write to see if it will interest you enough to invest time reading it. I haven’t really given you much to go off of so far so let me give you a little taste of what you’ll find around here.

For starters, the authors I look up to most are J. K. Rowling, Isaac Asimov, and Kristin Cashore. Rowling is nothing less than a mastermind with her attention to detail and plot to pull together all seven books with tiny details we almost forgot. Not to mention her wonderful characters who captured our hearts when they entered the scene and broke them when they left but taught us more than enough while they were there.

Asimov is also an imaginative creator of fantastic worlds. Who else could create a world featured around a relational and reproductive system with three entities while making it sound completely normal? His writing style is classic and he is one of the fathers of modern science fiction. By reading through The Gods Themselves, I was reminded why I loved and wished to write science fiction of my own.

Cashore feels like an internet friend of mine. Her blog brings out her quirks in the best light ever. She shares things that inspire her and what others are doing as well as keeping us up to date on her new books and the movies which will soon accompany them. When I’m reading about her awesome leading ladies, I am inspired to go out and take on the world.

All of these traits are what I am looking to take on in my own stories as well as my social interactions with my readers. I am hoping to have my own voice shine through as well.

While my main home is in low-level, science fiction, I often dabble in urban fantasy. My characters often break social norms and have troubles that other people like to steer away from. But if you stick around, you’ll see people with depression, anxiety, and others while finding support from those close to them while tackling fantastic beasts – who may or may not be actual beasts.

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